Another Reminder I am not forgotten

Psalms 121:

I lift up my eyes to the hills where does my help come from? (v.1)
My help comes from the Lord the Maker of heaven and earth. (v.2)

He will not let your foot slip he who watches over you will not SLUMBER......(v.3)
The Lord watches over you the Lord is your shade at your hand......(v.5)

The Lord will watch over your coming and going from now and forevermore!(v.8)


My God does not sleep, my God fights for me when I don't even know it. My God keeps me from falling, My God is for me! My God doesn't sleep, he is constantly keeping me in his safe, loving, compassionate faithful hands!!!!

Once again, a reminder that through all my trails with Jason's job, planning for twins, Jason's dad, a friend's sick baby, a friend's broken marriage, a friend's barren womb, Lord....you do not SLUMBER you are constantly helping us and working behind the scenes protecting us from the enemy!

You Never Let Go

How perfect are the lyrics of David Crowder's song: You Never Let Go

Right now in my life, there is a ton going on in terms of trials. I was working out today and heard this song, and immediately felt like it spoke directly to the situations I am facing.

I have felt for some time now kind of forgotten. I have felt like I have been praying for so long for several things that have not come to pass. In hearing these lyrics today, I am reminded of several things:

1) Obviously through all that we face, through the on going trials that seem to be at our feet day after day, consuming our minds, HE WILL NEVER LET GO!

2) Ever faithful, ever true,......that is what remains through our constant trials. How could I feel forgotten by Him or pushed aside when I know in my heart He is ever faithful!

3) When disaster came, oh my soul oh my soul....fills with hope. The hope that I know He is working behind the scenes, the hope that I know that He has my future in his hands, the hope that I know He has the next minute that I breath under his control.

4) Joy and pain, in sudden rain..your the same...you never let go. In all my fear, tears, pain, heartaches, questions, I know that Jesus is the same. He is the same God that healed my marriage, he is the same God that provided a way for me to go to college, the same job that provided me a teaching job, the same job that gave us the birth of our first son Blake, the same God that has restored relationships in my life. He is the same God that parted the red sea, he is the same God that delivered from the promise land after years and years....

He is the same God that wants to help me triumph through all the trials I have going on in my life....how could I feel forgotten when I know that He is for me, when I know He hears my cries, when I know that I don't see any evidence of him working on my behalf....he is orchestrated a beautiful future for me and my family!

Thank you Lord for speaking to my heart today and giving me hope...thank you Lord for never letting me go!

Don't want to forget: Blake has been playing pretend play now more and more. He is about 37-38 months.

He is also very much into "helping mommy" clean, fold laundry, cook, wash my feet (crazy yes).

Lately too, if I tell him I am tired or dont feel good, he comes to me and says: I hug you and all better!

He still loves his bear and is doing better going potty! However, with this time change we put him to bed at 8:30 and he gets up at 6:30..killer on us. I think to myself though in five or so short months we will be getting up way earlier than that with the twins.

Still blows my mind we are having twins. I just can't seem to get over it!!!

almost 13 wks

Now that I am finally feeling better, I am able to eat a TON more!!!! I think I am starting to have cravings....meat!

Today Blake and I went outside and racked some leaves. He had a blast jumpping in them and helping me.

These are the moments of just Blake and mommy that I will miss!

Going Public

Today is the first time I am actually going public that we are expecting twins. I have known now for six weeks that we were having these two precious babies. I am now 12 weeks along and had an ultrasound today. It was amazing to see two babies wiggling around. Baby A was waving, moving around a ton and Baby B was laying there relaxed and at one point gave us a wave (in which Jason counted five fingers on his hand).

They are looking good and measuring a week ahead. Almost right next to one another...one is measuring 13 weeks and one is measuring a little over 13 weeks. They are set right next to one another and are fraternal twins! We are thinking we will have one boy and one girl.

I went and saw MFM dr today in which I will be seeing quite a bit through my pregnancy. I get lots of ultrasounds with twins which is wonderful...more views of the little ones is always fun.

Jason went with me today and just grinned and smiled and talked about how excited he is about the twins coming. We celebrated a good doctors appointment over lunch at Rock Bottom..I was able to eat a hamburger and pretzel appetizer.....so yummy!

We feel so blessed to finally be able to open about the twins and are trusting God's hand upon this whole pregnancy!

Blake is now 2.5

Blake recently turned 2.5 and he is developing so much. He is into doing puzzles and can carry on a conversation so well. The dr. told me that he has great fine and gross motor skills. She said the fact that he can talk and she, being a stranger can understand him is very good. He is in 90% weight and 50% height. Blake is still working on being potty trained.

Today I wasn't feeling well, and he said " mommy hug...you feel better" He kept giving me so many hugs today. He also is into something we call a family hug. Every night when Jason gets home we make a big circle standing up and hug eachother at the same time...a family circle hug. He loves it! He asks for it! He gets the biggest smile on his face when we do our family hug.

Lastly, Jason has to give him a kiss, hug, and rub on head and me a kiss, hug, and rub on head before he leaves for work. He thought Jason forgot one morning and ran after him. "Daddy me hug! Daddy me hug!" My dad told me that's how I was when I was a kid.

Recently

Blake has recently started praying out loud with us. He will begin his prayers...usually it's "Jesus...mumble...mumble....Amen!" I love those moments!!!