Every night Blake prays

Jesus pray mommy's belly daddy's belly Amen!

He is so precious! I love him so much.

Not so easy

Having a hard time parenting Blake the past three weeks. I don't know what has gotten into him, but things just aren't working. I love him to death and it breaks my heart.....I can only hope that things change soon. I pray for wisdom and creativity in how to deal with him and discipline and yet I still struggle.

In the past but need it now

I have done this in the past, but I feel like I need to do it again....I need to list all the blessings I have been given by God

*Husband that loves the Lord
*Husband that provides
*Husband that works hard
*House over my head
*Two nice cars
*A healthy son
*Furniture to go in our home
*Food every week (more than we need)
*Money to buy clothes
*Money to have haircuts
*Money to go out to dinner
*Friends that are uplifting
*Family that loves, supports, and prays
*Church that is a place where I can be encouraged
*MOPS group
*Playdates
*Money for Blake to take classes
*Opportunity to be a stay at home mom
*Twins
*Encouraging extended family

There are so many more to keep track of, but those were what came off the top of my head in the matter of three min...satan...in your face...I am blessed. No matter what you bring my way this week, coming months, the Lord has already blessed me with so much!!!!

I need to remember this one

There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan, that can succeed against the Lord. Proverbs 21:30

I have to tell myself when my life is surrendered to the Lord, all that happens is because of his perfect will in my life. Whether it's twins, Jason's job, family health, it's all of God's plan prevailing. Good or bad, happy or sad, I want nothing more than God's plan to be unfolded before me.

I have comfort knowing that there is no plan (mine or Satan's) that can be above the Lord's. When my hearts desire is to be walking the path that God has chosen for me, then his plan will succeed. What peace that brings!!!


Side note: Had 22 week ultrasound today and twins look great. Reid and Tatum are both head down this time and Tatum was actually kicking Reid today. Everything appears to measuring properly...and to quote the dr. "Everything looks great, keep doing what you are doing" Hmmm does that mean I can keep eating like a hog!!!???? I go back in two weeks to have them measure liquid and babies fully again.

To be honest, I am having a hard time

I am trying to balance between my role as a woman, wife, mom, and friend. I am trying to spend as much time with my friends, one on one time with my husband, one on one time with Blake, and some alone time. I just can't seem to fit it all in and be satisfied. I feel like I am pulled in many directions and can't give a hundred percent to any of those. If I feel pulled now, I can't imagine how pulled I will feel in four months when the twins get here. I know my life and all of me will have to be devoted to the twins and Blake. But there has to be a way in the midst of all of that to not loose who I am as a friend, a daughter/sister, and a wife. I hate to see the other roles go wayside as I fulfill my duty as a mom. I am a bit perplexed and will be on a mission to hopefully figure this out before the twins get here!!!

Chirstmas with the Eltons

We had so much fun celebrating Christmas with my family. We celebrated Dec 23rd starting at 4:00. We walked into my mom and dad's house with the smell of yummy Italian food. They catered Portillos spaghetti with chicken parm, pompie chicken ravioli with this yummy stuffed pizza loaf, and sausage from portillos too. Janna made a walnut, cranberry, goat cheese salad to go along with the dinner. Everything tasted so scrumptious (as judith would say).

After dinner they crew sang Happy Birthday to me. Janna made a stunning huge cupcake with polka dots (so me). It was such an enjoyment to watch Blake sing the actual Happy Birthday song to me. He loved it and so did I!

Soon after happy birthday Richie was Santa and handed out gifts to all of us. The boys did so good waiting their turn to open gifts. Blake was totally into Christmas this year. He would sit on his knees, hands folded, and wait for Uncle Rich to call his name. He ripped opened the gifts and would hold them up. He learned very soon to make a pile of all his presents. All night he carried around his Wiggles and Toy Story 3 movie.

Soon it was time for my dad and mom to receive their gifts from us girls. We all pitched in to get them a new large screen TV. My mom cried and my dad was so grateful. They deserve a gift like that!!!

We were able to spend some time one on one with the Scottbergs before the rest of the family arrived. All the kids were downstairs and played video games with the guys, while us women were relaxing on the couch talking. Blake just had a hay day with Parker and Kent. He would run around, grab their hands, call their names, and just want to be by them!!! Blake's smile and squeals were so much fun to listen to through out the night.

While we were relaxing on the couch, I drank a huge glass of cold water hoping to get the little ones to move for my mom and Bethany. Nope...they didn't move. Soon through they will move for others to feel.

It hit 7 o'clock and the Mang family came. It got rowdy, loud, and energetic in the room. The kids just ran and ran and ran around. I love this year listening to the joy the kids got by playing with one another and being with each other. I guess because now Blake is apart of the "clan"

Santa came to our house at 7:30. Troy Kibler dressed up as Santa and walked into the house by the walkway. Someone yelled to the kids look outside look whose walking. All the kids ran to the window..I wish I could have taken a picture of all the little faces peering through the window to get a look at Santa. Soon Santa came in the front door and was greeted by adults and kids. The kids would go to him and look at him and then run away.

Santa was kind enough to sit in a chair and have all the kids sit on his lap. Parker, Nico, Gigi, and Wyatt did a pretty good job. Kent and Blake not so much into it. Pop Pop had to carry Kent and Blake to Santa. Kent sat on Santa lap, but Blake sat on Pop Pop's lap next to Santa. Blake wouldn't talk to Santa when it was his turn. Soon Santa was saying Merry Christmas to everyone, and Blake went up to him while Santa was sitting down...and his little voice said among the loud crowd, "I want Wiggles Santa" Oh my heart melted to see this little boy get the courage to talk to Santa so he made sure Santa knew what he wanted. I again of course didn't get a picture of it.

The kids had so much fun again opening more gifts with their cousins. This time Richie and Jason played Santa handing the gifts out to everyone. Blake did awesome waiting his turn. He sat on his knees again, bouncing up and down with his hands folded. He waited and waited....he would look at Richie and anticipated him calling his name out for a gift. There was one point that I looked at Blake and he was mouthing to Richie, "me, me, me" and pointing to himself. It touched my heart that he was so sweet about it. He wasn't screaming, yelling, or mad it wasn't his turn he waited paitently, but yet so excited!!!

After Santa left we of course had lots of dessert to munch on. We then played white elephant which was crazy and insane! No lie...it was so loud the babies were moving through the game. They could here the loud and craziness that they are about to be born into.

We left the night at 10'o'clock. I hated to leave. The night was so much fun and so enjoyable for me. It goes by way too fast. That's what I hate about times I look forward to...they come and go so quickly!

I really enjoyed this year seeing Blake run around with his cousins, hearing his laughter and squeals with the gifts he opened. It was different this year because I didn't have to watch him to discipline him, I was able to observe him having a Christmas that I knew when I was growing up...and in return I was able to enjoy family time more and seeing his face light up with all the gifts and company.

What a great 2010 Christmas!!!!

20 Week appointment

My 20 week appointment couldn't have gone any better. Jason was able to join me this time, so I was really happy to have his support. Whenever he comes with me to the dr. appoinments I feel supported and I feel like we are a team. So I throughly soaked in this moment!!!

The tech showed us the babies had changed positions last time we saw them and then confirmed (so did the dr) that we were having one of each. A boy and a girl to add to the Sidell household. Even as I type that we are having one of each, it still blows my mind we are having twins. NEver in my wildest dreams would I think we would be chosen to parent, love, and raise these two precious lives.

The results of the ultrasound were great. Reid is 13 oz and Tatum is 12 oz. Reid measured at 21 week and four days or so...Tatum measured at 20 days and 1 day. The dr wasn't concerned at all with the distance of days between the two. As the dr. scanned the babies, he showed us the nasel passage had been delveoped and that the limbs measured well. He looks for those things because he said that by doing so it shows that the babies are developing well and there are no signs of down syndrome. He said the babies look great and this is the way you would want your appointment to go. We were thrilled at the good news!!!!

Once again we are getting all these picture of Reid adn not too many of Tatum. I am more than half way there!!!!! If all goes well, I will deliver at 38 wks!!! 18 weeks to go and I know it will fly by!!!!! So much to get done and take care of before these little ones enter our lives and our homes.