Update-marathon of one

Well....Blake is doing well. He got his tongue clipped on Saturday, April 26th. He did great! He cried afterwards, but I think it was because he was hungry. Blake is for sure more alert and awake. He loves his Elmo gym and his swing now. He sits under the gym for a half hour watching the lights flash, elmo go up and down, and the music play. His swing has been wonderful because he sits in that when he is so tired he can't fall asleep. I am not saying it always works, but it helps settle him SOMETIMES. We made an appointment for a paediatric neurologist to look at his lip. That's not until May 15th, so I am anxious to hear what he has to say about it. Blake is sometimes sleeping for four hours straight. Jason will do a 10:00 feeding while I go to bed at around 8 or 9 and then I get up for the 2:00ish feeding and then the 4:00-5:00 feeding and the rest of the day. This way, I am guaranteed at least four hours of sleep every night! Major blessing. Blake has been smiling at Jason and I...it's been so wonderful to see that. He listens to stories...when he is in a good mood, and I will often just talk with him for awhile and tell him our game plan for the day. I need to get better at resting when Blake is...but how do you do that when the house is a mess, dinner needs to be started, you need to shower yourself, then on top of it need to workout...I need to get better at resting at least a half hour when he is. I love watching him sleep or other people hold him. It amazes me that God gave Jason and I Blake. I miss him when he's sleeping at night, and when I go to feed him, I just smile at him with love. Sometimes though, when I have to rock him 2 hours to go back to sleep, I am not always smiling then.

I am doing well. I went to the dr. yesterday and will continue to be on cumadin for 5 more months. She reiterated to be careful not to fall or bleed. She also mentioned to be cautious of my diet. I go to the OB on Friday and can't wait to hear what she has to say. I am not sure what form of birth control we can use since I have blood clots, so I am curious what she will suggest.

Jason and I together are doing well. We are trying to figure out what to do for our 4 year anniversary...we have an idea...but not for sure yet.

I went to visit school today, and I totally miss being there. I had lunch with a friend and it was so sad to realize I am not teaching there right now. I miss the kids and so bad wanted to go to my classroom and give them all hugs. I can't wait to go back and visit sometime in the next couple of weeks.

Sorry to all my friends who I have not been able to keep in contact with. I rarely have 10 min at a time to talk. I hope as Blake settles down and takes longer naps, that will allow me to chat on the phone adn catch up with you all.

Thanks for your support and understanding.

Help me understand

Why is it when you try and help someone they won't except your help and take it more as an insult?

First month of Blake's Life

sleepy eyes

Last night when I went to bed, I knew that I had to still read my Bible. I thought if I opened up the Bible and saw the words, my eyes would soon shut and I wouldn't have remembered anything I had read. I decided instead of watching the Real Wives of New York City Reunion, I would turn on the preaching channel. I saw this woman preaching a message that seemed to catch my attention.

There was one thing that stood out to me the most with an analogy that she did based on James when it talks about trials. She got out a camera and started to take pictures of the audience. She said that each of you in the audience has patience, love, kindness, self control,ex. deep down in you. She started taking pictures of people in the audience and then asked... where do I have to go to get the pictures developed...in a dark room. That's the same thing sometimes with the fruit of the spirit. We have to go through the dark room of trials and see that when we are done, we have developed love, kindness, patience, self control, ex. that already existed deep in us.

I loved that analogy especially with learning to be a mom...what patience I have to have for Blake, Jason, and myself in figuring out how this all works. I was encouraged and it gave me something to think about and pray about for myself. It helped me realize that I need to pray that those characteristics or fruits of the spirit within me would surface and soon help me to be a better friend, mother, wife, daughter, ex.

A little smirk

Today when I was nursing Blake he gave me a little smirk...I then had him unlatch and saw an even bigger smirk. Uh..priceless. We have spent our mornings nursing, singing "This is the day", reading a Bible story, and napping. The days aren't flying by yet...but more and more I am enjoying my time with Blake. I miss him when he is sleeping and wish I could just gobble him up. I love going in his room and seeing him lay in his crib and rest peacefully. His little arms and hands are above his head as he soundly sleeps. I look forward to the weekends, but it's no the same as when I wasn't a mom. I look forward to seeing Jason a little more and having him around the house. I only saw Jason for an hour last night...my time with him seems to be getting less and less. HOpefully that doesn't last long!

Fab 4

Four generations...Mom, me, Great Grandma Bea, and Blake. I can only hope Blake can create many memories with these two women as I have! I am blessed and so is Blake.

CD

Today is the first day I am alone with Blake since he has been born. He is three weeks old today and is growing! I started off the day with nursing Blake and saying a prayer for him and I. Blake started off his day with peeing on my sheets and spitting up on my pillow. Shortly after that, I put him in his crib and he slept a little. I straightened the house, got ready, ate breakfast, and did laundry....all in a matter of 45 minutes! Blake then woke up and I read him two books and played a worship CD for him. He fell asleep to the worship CD and as he laid there, I watched the video Jason took of when Blake was born. I feel like that time went by so fast and was such a blur. I wish I would have soaked that time in more when we were in the hospital and he just entered the world. I have to be careful (I am trying to tell myself) although I am tired and drained not to wish away these newborn months. What a challenge that is!

I would like to run to the store with him and see how I do. I am a bit nervous about taking him out on my own...but you don't know how you do until you try.

This evening we have a doctor's appointment for him to have his tongue looked at. I don't know if they will have the procedure done in the office today or we will have to make another appointment. I can't wait to be done with the doctor's office, I am there every week whether it's for Blake or me.

I miss time with my husband. It seems as though any "extra moments" we have, we are resting or cleaning the house. We don't see to have quality time together, but I am trying to not pressue him and be okay with the few moments we do have together.

Oh...we took Blake to church on Saturday night, and he did a great job. He slept the whole time and was such a good boy. He takes after his cousin Parker, Parker sits so well in church, it always impresses me.