mixed

I have mixed feelings today with it being teachers last day of school. I go back to the emotions I had when my students would leave me for the year. It was so sad to say good bye to some of them and yet so exciting to begin my time off for the summer. Now that I am not teaching, I think about what it was like at the end of may, the end of the school year....and to be honest...I really do miss teaching. I know people say I can always go back and do it again, but to work with the same staff and parents I had will never be! I miss and I enjoyed that season in my life.

Recycle

I know I posted this song several months back....but once again it's on my mind.

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

I've learned

I have always thought contentment was in regards to being content with what you have: the house you live in, the car you drive, the clothes you wear, exc.

Recently, I think God is teaching me to be content on where he has me and situations that are happening in my life that are beyond my control.

Stink!

Life is a bit disappointing right now in several areas.

Wondering

Wondering what it means for my family to "sacrifically" give?

So nice yet so sad

I went to see a hematologist yesterday to discuss my blood clots. The dr. I went to go see is a hematologist but also a cancer dr. He was so nice and patient with me and all my questions. We talked for at least a half hour. He even took time to tell me a personal story that happened when he was working with one of his patients. It was sad though....when I walked to use the restroom, there were cancer patients getting treatment....they were all lined up and hooked up to a machine. It broke my heart! A part of me wanted to sit and talk with them, just be a friend to them....and then a part of me wanted to turn my head and not even look because it broke my heart so much.

Needless to say my appointment went well. They are doing more blood work to determine if my blood clots were genetic or caused by my c-section. I have been wondering that question for over two years now, I am so excited to finally get results! The good news is he looked at my lump in my throat and he also said it's not a concern to him. So he is the third dr. to say that! Praise the Lord!

Little one

I don't know what's going on...maybe it's part of turning two..not sure.

You aren't napping. You are exhausted and you start to fall asleep in my arms but then when I put you down in your crib you scream! Scream for an hour or more (of course I go in and sooth every 5/10/15 min.) At bed time you are also doing the same thing. My heart hurts for you because I know you need the nap and will not do so. You have also started to twitch and jerk in your sleep. When I called the dr. to ask questions about it, they said not to worry. Of course as your mother, I have already cried over it and prayed over you about it.

I can only hope this is a few day stage thing for you and you snap out of it and begin to sleep soundly, peacefully, and long.