I went and bought a pumpkin pie and ate 3/4 of it all by myself in a day and a half.....I am giving my last piece of pie to a friend at work.
We had another showing on our house...still no news. We have had about 4 or 5 showings in the last couple weeks, but no offers. I am getting nervous. I want to move soon so that I can help pack and unpack.
Jason is so confident that God has it all under control. He knows the house we need to move in, knows the neighbors we need to have, knows the school the children will need to be in, knows the offer we need on this current house...he's just so confident. I wish I could be more like that, but right now I am more anxious than confident.
My sister called today and told me a plan for all that i need to do for the baby according to what month I am in. She mentioned registering and going to check out the hospital we will deliver at. Wow...to me that is serious stuff.
I ordered Fit Pregnancy Magazine I could work out while pregnant, unfortunately I can't. But seeing all the little babies in there just can't wait to hold my own. I already love babies and kids, and to be able to have my own that is from me own body and DNA and Jason's is amazing.
My face is getting worse. I feel like I wouldn't mind how I look at 14 weeks pregnant, but my face is just NASTY!
It's crazy during the school day having other students that are not mine, come up and ask if I am pregnant or as the younger kids ask "is there a baby in your belly?" I love having to say yes!
I can't help but constantly think through out my day what a true honor it is that the Lord has blessed me with a child. I know as soon as I found out I was pregnant, I dropped to the ground, cried, and thanked the Lord for choosing us to parent this life!
Once again, Lord, thank you for this gift of life in me. May I trust you as I worry and think about my fears of loosing this child during pregnancy or the baby having health issues. Let me trust be louder than my fears!
Today the dad that had that dream about me having a baby had his son bring me roses. His son cut his head open during recess and I went and sat with the little boy untill his dad came. I got a thank you card for sitting with him and PINK roses. So I am wondering...did you pick pink out because in the dream you had of me having a baby, you dreamt it was a girl.
He also gave the nurse roses for taking care of him...they were peach roses....
I can't help but have my mind wonder.....is there a hidden meaning behind the pink roses.
Yesterday when I told my class I was pregnant, there was this little boy who was so excited. I thought more excited than I would ever have thought a little boy could be for a teacher telling him she was pregnant. This morning at school his dad came up to me and shook my hand he said, " Mrs. Sidell on behalf of our family I would like to congratulate you on your pregnancy. I had a dream at the beginning of school that you were pregnant and had a baby." I told him that his son was so happy and he said that when his son came out of school he was waving the paper and telling him dad look you were right! I thought that was so neat! I was so blessed and touched by the dad sharing that with me.
Today was so much fun! I decided the way that I would tell my class that I was pregnant was by doing a game of hangman. They were so excited when they solved the puzzle. They solved it and just kind of didn't say much, and then I told them that I was having a baby in March. After that, I got many questions like: Will you bring the baby in after it's born? Can I hold the baby? Will you come back and teach us? Then this one little girl said...."Can my mom and I go shopping for you and buy you maternity clothes?" How funny is that??!! She was just so excited.
Side note....the dr. called and said I am still hemorrhaging in my uterus. Please pray that the hemorrhage resolves. They said they are going to monitor it.
Okay so last night we went to a wedding for my cousin. Honestly, you would think that my side of the family were the only ones there. We just had fun in the way we know how. Cheering, whistling, and dancing. I think there were about 30 of us from my side of the family. We had the best time! I love when my family doesn't have to worry about putting on a show, or worry about being proper, and just lets their hair down and is themselves! I think the funniest part of the wedding was towards the end. My grandma loves to dance! She really can move and grove. She asked me if I would dance, and I said I was too tired to tonight. So I pulled her aside and told her to ask Jason to dance. She was so excited...she asked Okay, what kind of song, fast, slow? She was really looking forward to dancing with him. I told her a fast song, that Jason is good at dancing on fast ones. So as soon as a fast song came, grandma Bea danced her little body and grabbed Jason on the dance floor. Oh I was laughing so hard! I went and sat by all my cousins (8 or 9 of us) we were watching Jason and grandma dance. She was going to town!!!! All of a sudden I look and I see Jason standing there looking all around. Grandma was shaking her grove thing and started dancing everywhere else on the dance floor but next to Jason. Jason was looking right to left and couldn't find grandma. He then found me and came and sat by me and said....your grandma left me on the dance floor. Grandma can't control herself when there is music on....she's gotta shake her grove thing...if if that means she leaves her dancing partner standing there. Oh I was just laughing so hard! My husband is such a good sport! He danced so well and was out there without me...he is the bestest!
This was the first time grandparents and aunts and extended cousins saw me since we have been pregnant. Lots of belly touching, hugs, and congrats! Again, it is a realization that we are really having a baby in 6 months!
Yesterday I had my appointment for my ultrasound. I told Jason the night before that he didn't need to go with me. So I got the my dr. went into the room right away. With in a matter of minutes, I saw my precious baby in my belly. I was so excited. It was wiggling around, squirming, kicking it's legs and waving it's hands. I couldn't believe that life was moving in me. I just wanted to watch the baby for hours. I was sad when she took the device off me. I didn't want to leave the baby. I was disappointed because I had told Jason he didn't need to come to the ultrasound. I think he would have loved to have seen the little precious baby move...the pregnancy would have become so much more real to him.
The heartbeat measured at 163. Every time I call and tell Bethany something about the baby, she always changes what she thinks the sex is. It's so funny! When Jason got home, I showed him the new images of the precious baby in my belly. I had put the first ultrasound picture we had in August at the top of the stack. The first one of the baby looked like a lima bean. So Jason looked at the picture and said it didn't change much. Then he shuffled to the next picture and a huge smile came on his face. I hit him in excitement and said, "Look that's our baby!" He was kind of quiet and studied the pictures. I asked what he was thinking, and he said...we created this life...how weird. We both were so excited about the growth of that little one For me this appointment made me so excited and anxious. At every appointment I have been at I think we are at like 6 or something. But every one I have been at, there has always been a but in it. I see the baby but....the heartbeat is low. So today for the first time there was no buts about it! I went to my mom and dads house and showed them and Janna the picture of the baby. My mom said that she thinks she saw a pee pee...meaning it's a boy! My dad looked at it and said...so that's my little granddaughter there. Janna was just in awe that the baby was in me like that. Well now we are waiting to hear from the dr. with details about the baby. The technician couldn't read the ultrasound in depth. Hopefully I will hear from my doctor early this morning so I could send home a note to parents and students telling them of this awesome gift the Lord has blessed Jason and I with. Lord, you are amazing. Seeing that life in me today was incredible. I don't know why you choose to bless Jason and I so quickly with a precious life. I thank you for your generosity and love towards us. As I sat this morning laying in bed a verse came into my mind Every good and perfect gift comes from above! Lord this baby you have given me is perfect and I know this life is yours first! Ugh I can't wait to see this baby...I AM SO EXCITED!!!
It hit me today how kids are so in tune with things at such a young age.
It was picture day today and one little girl didn't want to come in class because she was wearing a dress. She said that people were going to stare at her and make fun of her. She was crying and I went in the hallway and talked with her. I told her I would walk in class with her. I put out my hand so we can walk into class together, but with tears streaming down her face she refused.
***** It hit me that at the age of 8 this little girl was so self conscious about what others think of her.
Then there was this boy standing outside and he looks at me and says "Mrs. Sidell, Why is it all dry around your face?"
He was pointing out the pimples and dryness on my face because of my pregnancy. I couldn't tell him it was because I was pregnant, I just told him : "I don't know why, it just started happening. It has never been like this before."
I was already self conscious about my face, and it proves that other people see it too. Kids...they notice so many things that I never would think they would care about or think twice about.
Yesterday, we got home from church and of course I was hungry. Jason started the grill and then decided he was going to do a load of laundry. He gathered all the whites and threw them in hot water and started the load. I went upstairs to change into my Bears jersey for the game and realized that he had my new white shirt that fits perfectly in a pool of hot water. Which you all know equals shrinking of my new shirt. So he and I went into the laundry room and were sifting through the very hot water to find that white shirt of mine. Our little fingers got so hot, we had to make a fishing pole out of a hanger and fish out my white shirt. We pulled up boxers, socks, t-shirts, tank tops, and then........finally, after about three minutes we found my white shirt, hung it up to be washed again later. We laughed...who would have thunk we would be fishing in our own laundry machine.
I am a bit worried. As I looked at the next several months the rest of Sept-November, Jason and I are so stinking busy. Soon after November then comes Christmas time, which is always a busy time of year. It's scary to me. Normally I wouldn't mind being so busy. I would just think of it as something to look forward to during my work week. However, now that we are expecting in March, I have some new thoughts towards being busy. You know how it is.....when you are so busy, time flies by. I looked at Jason yesterday in the car, and I said, "honey, we are going to be so busy the next couple months and before you know it we will be in our last trimester for the baby." He looked at me and said, "yes....it is going to come quickly!" As he said that, my heart sunk. I LOVE time with my husband. I never can get enough of it. It's so scary to me that someday soon his time and attention it going to be focused on another human being. I am grateful that my parents live near by and my sister Janna will be moving back towards home in May. I know we could always have my family sit for the precious baby in my belly. But driving on the way home, having it just him and I in the car, snuggled up to his big shoulders....I just thought...this time of you and I is going to quickly end...and then a tear came into my eyes. Hormones....maybe? Reality....maybe? Whatever it was, I want to savor each evening we have of relaxing at home of watching the Cubs together and having no responsibility or int eruptions but him and I and enjoying our time together.
Lord, what are you doing? The ups and downs of my pregnancy are so hard It has been so challenging for me to enjoy this life that you have planted in me. I want to rejoice with the baby you have entrusted to Jason and I. How do I do that Lord when there are so many uncertainties and complications with my pregnancy?
Jason and I went to our appointment this week and we are 11 3/7 week. I was bummed I am not 12 weeks. I just want to make it to the 12 week mark. The nurse measured the babies heart rate at 148. It was 150 on Aug. 13th and I asked the dr. if it's okay that the heart rate went down and he said they prefer it to go up and down. The dr. also ordered another ultrasound on September 26th. Because of our history of complications, my continual back pain, and my little spotting I have had recently he wants to check on the baby in two weeks. It's after the 26th that if everything is okay, we will then tell the parents at my school and I will post a bulletin.
The poor dr. I had. I had a list of questions I needed answered. He told me to take these otc pills to help go potty, he then suggested purpose soap for my face, and still said no exercise or intimacy for me.
After my appointment, I was so hungry. Jason and I went to Rock Bottom and I ate my plate CLEAN. All that was left on it was an edge piece of lettuce. I had a big cheeseburger with fries. Oh my was it sooooooo goood! I can't remember the last time I had a cheeseburger. Ugh..yummy! I think the baby really enjoyed it too.....I think it will want another one next week.
God knew it all along. It's no secret that Jason and I had a really tough beginning to our marriage. Our trial lasted a year and a half. There were plenty of days I wanted to give up and just end it. I am now writing in amazement as to how wonderful my marriage is and how grateful I am that the Lord didn't allow Jason and I to give up.
Jason has been such a wonderful husband during my pregnancy. Ever since we found out, to having all the ultrasounds and the fear of miscarriage, he has been so supportive. He has cleaned, done laundry, and grocery shopped for me. On top of all that he has gassed up my car and got my oil changed. He has not done this only once, but several times. He is making sure I am resting, and always checking what I am eating. When we go to bed we give one another a kiss good night, and he says "I love you, I love the two of you" I can't wait to see Jason hold our precious little baby in my belly in 29 weeks. He will be a great dad!
Thank you Lord that when I questioned and doubted you, you knew it all, you knew all that we would endure and you knew that you would carry us through. You knew Lord that I would need a supportive husband during my pregnancy and you allowed it to be Jason. I am so grateful for you seeing the end in sight when I didn't! I thank you Lord that you gave me strength during the hard times and your grace helped me to hang on to your promises. Thank you Lord for blessing me far more than I could ask or imagine! (ephes. 3:19-20)
Here I am sitting at work. I have to talk to parents tonight about my classroom. I don't like talking in front of adults, but sometimes we have to leave our comfort zone. I was doing something for school today and saw that we are 1/4 through our first quarter already. I have mixed emotions. I am sad to know the year for me is slowly leaving. Something really cute happended today in class. During Bible we were talking about Mary and Joseph in class and how Mary and Jospeh lost Jesus while they were traveling. They were traveling for a day and saw that Jesus was missing. They didn't worry too much because they thought he was with friends or relatives. So I asked my kids would they be concerned if they had a child and they were lost and they couldn't find them? And this little boy raises his hand and says, "Wait, didn't you say someday you wanted a child?" I said yes hopefully someday soon. Then this little girl says ," Mrs. Sidell, I think it's going to be really soon for you." How sweet were these kids. I Can't wait to tell them about the precious baby in my belly!
Well, pretty much everyone at works now knows we are expecting. I was thinking yes it is exciting for people at work to know, but I enjoyed them not knowing. I just felt like for so long it was just me and the baby and so close and connected and no one else knew there was life in me. I loved that secret that I had. I would just touch my belly during meetings at the beginning of school and think ahhhh I know your there, but the people in this room don't. Oh well...by looking at my chest, face, and belly, there is no hiding it now!
With being pregnant, I am becoming more and more about creating unity and tradition in my family. Jason and I went out to breakfast yesterday and I began to think about how my sisters and I would do date with dad. So I thought what could Jason do with our child once a weekend. We talked about it and though maybe Jason and our child could go get doughnuts once a week together. I thought that sounded good. It is so important to Jason and I that he has one on one quality time with our child. That they build a bond early that will connect them and open doors of communication. I can't wait to think of new holiday traditions to have with our little one too! Ahhh the fun has just started....the baby better love traditions.
So today I spent some time in prayer. I had so many people to pray for I felt like I just kept going. So many people in need of God to move and answer a prayer in their life. After I prayed, I was reading Oswald Chambers complete works...here is a few things I read:
The purpose of prayer is to reveal the presance of God.
We generally look upon prayer as means of getting things for ourselves, whereas the Bible's idea of prayer is that God's holiness and God's purose and God's wise order be brought about.
There are times when we pray that things remain the same, but you begin to be different.
Ever since I had Mrs. Timson in fifth grade I have journaled. Being the pack rat that I am, I still have those journals from fifth grade. For those of you who really know me, that's not hard to imagine. I journaled from when I was in Jr. High (which my mom found some entries and wasn't too pleased) through college. Now that I am going to be a mommy, I thought that this is another great opportunity for me to get in the habit of journaling again. The best part of journaling on here, is that it won't take up space in my closet, so it doesn't make me a pack rat!
Gosh, so many things on my mind as I start to blog. I guess I will keep it sweet and simple. There will be some major life changes in the next 7 months and we can't wait!
One question I have....does the precious baby in my belly love me already and love me as much as I love it without having met me?
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My name is Sharon. My sister has begged me to start up a "Blogspot" for some time now. There are some exciting things happening in our lives, and I'd like to keep a log of all of the adventures and changes that will be taking place. I love my husband, Jason. He watches Food Network with me, lets me go to the outlet malls 10x a week, and takes care of me when I'm sick.
I have a handsome husband and a very precious boy! I am a mother, wife, sister, friend, daughter, and aunt! I love being all those things, but most of all I love being God's child! Jesus is my everything and am so glad he choose me!