Thursday, December 27, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
I am very frustrated, upset, and hurt. I haven't cried as much as I have cried this week than I have in a long time. Some may say its hormones...I am wishing I could blame it on that, but I can't blame it on pregnancy.
I hope I can look past circumstances and feel something different in the days to come.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
I just don't wanna go to work though. I am so tired....so worn out...so many things to do...that I don't wanna go to work.
I know I have two weeks off of school after Friday, but it would be nice to have a day off work prior to Christmas so that I can clean and get grocery shopping done.
Oh well....I keep trying to savor the moments I have left with my students. Only about 50 days left after Christmas break and I know I am going to miss them and teaching in general.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
"Now, O Lord my God, you have made your servant king in place of my father David. But I am only a little child and do not know how to carry out my duties. Your servant is here among the people you have chosen, a great people to numerous to count or number. So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong." The Lord was pleased that Solomon had asked for this. So God said "Since you have asked for this and not wealth and long life, nor have asked for death of your enemies but for discernment in administering justice. I will do what you have asked and give you a wise and discerning heart.....Moreover, I will give you what you have not asked for both riches and honor.
I love how Solomon was a young boy who had his priorities straight. He didn't want material things, he asked for wisdom and discerning heart. He was given much at a young age and the Lord trusted him to be a leader.
1 Kings 4: 29
God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight.
Be careful to obey all the laws Moses has given you; do not turn from it to the right or the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. (9) Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
I want this precious baby to keep God's laws in his heart and to follow his path and like it says to be successful wherever it goes. That this life in me would be strong, courageous, and not have any fear in whatever life brings him/her.
I hope I can keep this up to read this to the baby everyday. It's great to read it stories and rhymes, but how much better is it to read it scripture and pray for these things that I am reading.
During the party, a few moms came in to say Happy Birthday. I loved it because we were able to talk about life, changes of being a mom, and just have an adult conversation apart from school and work. It was wonderful!
After the party, I went up to the room mom who did most of the work for my birthday, and told her how much I appreciated her doing this for me. She said that she knows I probably won't return next year and really wanted me to have something special. I was so blessed by her sincerity of giving and thoughtfulness.
I am sad because I know that I will miss these times...not the gifts, but interacting with adults and seeing the students get so excited.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
I celebrated St. Lucia day with my parents, jason, rich, and papa. My mom made yummy homemade swedish meatballs and noodles. It was soo good! Then I served a peppermint choc. cake my mom made to everyone with a wreath on my head! Jason thought I looked cute...I thought...hmmm interesting tradition..but it was fun...we laughed, ate, and enjoyed one another's company.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
Friday, December 7, 2007
I hope when my baby comes I can still be a kid. I had a little girl over the other day to help make some Christmas cookies. She is one of my students. We had such a fun time. When we heard Jason come home, we hid in the closet and yelled surprise. It was great...she was giggling the whole time. I hope I can be a fun mom!
This picture was taken over Thanksgiving break.
Janna looks really small in the picture.....I look like a big head and smile! Yikes...bethany was sweet enough to write a comment on facebook asking what would I do if my child looked like me in this picture....
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
A friend came to my classroom yesterday and told me she was pregnant. I was so happy for her. Now four more friends....need that same blessing!
I am rereading a very good book right now. When I Lay My Issac Down. I will have to write some excerpts from it sometime.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
I go back to the doctor tonight (in this lovely weather). It's just a check up....and hopefully will get a good report.
I have made two kinds of Christmas cookies....snowballs and pecan tassies. I want to make maybe two more kinds...we'll see how I am feeling. I was in bed by 7:30 last night and lights off by 8:00...making cookies and working a full day made me REALLY tired.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
It's so scary. I had heard months 6-9 or harder to be pregnant in and you get more uncomfortable. I can say that is starting to be true here. My back hurts more and my feet and hands are swollen, I get out of breath alot easier, and I even got dizzy during church on Thanksgiving and had to leave service.
This past week, I have been up every night in the middle of the night for an hour. The baby wasn't active this week and I was a bit concerned. I laid in the bed praying for an hour that the baby would give me just one kick to let me know it's alive. It would. What a comfort in a kick. People say oh, just wait. It will be kicking all the time! Last night the baby kicked quite a bit. Jason was able to feel it twice! He had the BIGGESTS grin on his face when he felt the baby move. His mom was able to feel it move over Thankgiving...so she had her first introduction with the precious baby in my belly.
I need to make some Christmas cookies. The thought of being on my feet again just doesn't seem appealing. I know I can bring the ingrediants and utencils to me and make them at the table. But then I have to get up, wash the untencils and be up and down to put the cookies and them out of the oven. I love to bake, but just doesn't seem to appealing right now.
What in the world????? Why do I have so much to say at 3:45 in the morning?
I am going to go back upstairs and hold Jason's hand untill I fall asleep. I tend to do that. WHen I can't sleep, I will hold his hand. He says he likes it when I hold his hand during the night. He doesn't know I am doing it, but he says he likes it!