So frustrated

There are some major things that need to be discussed about the baby and just no time or energy to have those deep conversations and then to make those decisions...ugh!

Oh man!

I had another doctor's appointment yesterday. The baby was monitored and looks healthy the doctor said. I was hooked up to a machine to check the heartbeat and movement of the baby. When the doctor came in to check me she asked if I had coughed at all during the time I was being monitored. I told her no, she said well you had a contraction in there. I didn't even know! She didn't say a braxton hicks contraction, she just said a contraction. I have three weeks until the baby turns....that is March 18th. She said if it doesn't turn after March 18th, most likely it won't turn.

I find myself praying not for it to turn and not for it to not turn...I find myself praying for God's will to happen. I don't know what would be best for me a c-section or normal birth...I am trusting whatever it is, it's what I can handle and what the Lord wants for me. I keep saying that, but I do have a peace about it. Either way, they both make me squirm. I just wish a baby could be born one push, no pain, and then born able to nurse right away with no problem.

I am getting anxious to know if it's a boy or a girl. My students yesterday wrote down the estimated date of when the baby will come and if it's a boy or girl. Everyone in class choose a boy except for two people.

My mom thinks it's a boy, Jason's mom when she saw me for the first time when I was pregnant said she thinks it's a boy. Bethany at the start said a girl...not sure what she says now...actually now she asks if they have my due date wrong because of how big I am.

I am anxious more than ever to know the gender.

Jason has been wonderful helping out. Running errands for the baby, putting things together for the baby, researching best products for the baby, rubbing my feet, grocery shopping, cleaning, and then simply being kind enough to ask how I am doing with the changes of not working and the baby coming.

My Saturday

So after I wrote my blog yesterday I had continual pain in my back. I really thought it was a pulled muscle or a UTI. I called the OB on call and he said to make sure everything is okay to go to the hospital and have them monitor me and do a urine test.

Jason was in Rockford and so he couldn't go with me. I am so blessed my mom lives five minutes from CDH(the hospital), so I picked her up on the way. We walked into Labor and Delivery. They checked me in...and they told me I had to take my clothes off. I wasn't too keen on that. But I did as I was told and I laid in the hospital bed as they checked the heartbeat and the movement of the baby.

The nurses at the hospital were wonderful. Very sweet, nurturing, and answered any and all questions. It was fun being in the hospital with my mom...we talked and she kept my mind off of what was going on.

The nurse came in and looked at the heartbeat and said that everything looks okay. She said that there is some irritability with the baby. That means when I don't drink enough I can have some contractions related to dehydration.

I then saw the doctor and he did an internal....I told him I didn't shave and I felt really bad. He just smiled. He said that I am not dilated or anything and am fully closed. He also mentioned the head is now at the top of my belly button. So the baby turned the opposite direction that it needs to turn.

My mom asked the doctor if I could deliver a little earlier...a couple days and he said no if we do a c-section we do it at 39 weeks. So I won't get to have Janna there for the birth...which I have to be okay with.

Next, I am feeling a little shame because I hadn't shaved for the doctor, he had to do an internal, and the nurse turns to me and whispers...honey next time you come in so you know, your gown opening goes in the back, not the front! I got so red! Oh my!

So that was my Saturday. Everything is good with the baby, no early labor, and the last thing the doctor said to me was...your 35 weeks, well honey you have awhile to go yet before the baby is born. So much for my thought that the baby would be born sometime in the 20's of March!

Finally the birds

I ran some errands at 7:45 this morning. As I pulled into the garage at 9:15 and was ready to shut the garage door, I notice birds chirping. I then sat on the couch waiting for the laundry to finish and could see the shadow of birds flying outside. Finally....life is starting to show....people and animals have come out of hibernation for a few days. Ugh...only to watch the news and see more snow headed here for Monday and Tuesday!



***side note...i feel as though the baby will be born sometime in the 20's of march...we'll see...we will know more in 3 weeks!

Do you know?

Do you know why it takes nine months to have a baby fully devloped? What was God's significance with 9 months?

question

When you are sick, what do you love doing and what makes you feel better?

Little one update

I went to the doctor on Wednesday. They said that the baby is still breech. At 37 weeks I have a decison to make if the baby hasn't turned. I can go to the hostiptal and they can try to turn the baby outside my body. The doctor said that if that is done there is not 100% success with it. It hurts the mother and can induce labor. 2nd option is to schedule a c-section at 39 weeks. So I think Jason and I are leaning towards the 2nd option.

I measured again at 34 weeks, but am 33 weeks. I keep feeling the baby's butt in my upper tummy! It makes me look uneven. Quite funny! I was told i can't travel anywhere more than an hour away.

I am trusting right now that God knows what I can and cannot handle. If it's a normal delivery, so be it. If it has to be a c-section, so be it. God has already planned out how my delivery is going to go, who my baby is, and has allowed Jason adn I the privilage to parent this child.

I am so glad that I have Jesus to trust and to have my best interest, Jason's best interest, and the baby's best interest in mind.

Now I have to decide when my last day at work will be. I am not sure what to do. I feel very tired when I am home from school. I went to bed....eyes closed...sleeping at 7:30 last night. I know I will leave around Easter break....not sure if I will a little before or if I will finsih the 4 day week after break.