5 days ago
Friday, September 3, 2010
It's been a rough two weeks here. Potty training Blake has consumed me. He's done pretty well, but I can't ever be lazy about it. It's very intentional on my part. Timing the last time he went, watching for signs he is about to go, and then trying to entertain and keep him excited to go on the potty.
On top of it, he has been waking up at 7:00 and only taking about an hour nap. That means I am unable to do my morning chores and get ready before he awakens and I have just enough time to read my bible, straighten the house, and eat a snack before he wakes up from his nap.
As a result of being drained with potty training (which is so worth it to me) and him not sleeping much, I have been on edge with him. I have realized that my patience level has been very slim. I go to bed at night wishing I would have handled situations better. My temper, fatigue, frustration has definitely won instead of my peace, patience, and understanding.
I have decided I need to be more at ease and never get tired of doing good...never get tired of doing the right thing when dealing with Blake.
I have come to realize to be a good parent takes lots of work and energy. It would be easy for me to let things go and not stay on top of discipline. I however have a responsibility to God to raise Blake with morals, to love the Lord, and do honor and respect those in his life.
I will do what I can and offer myself daily as a vessel to be used by God to mold and shape my child....what a CALLING that is!