Venting

It's been a hard couple weeks here. Jason and Blake have been sick. That means that I can't go and be out and about like I enjoy being and we are stuck inside! Everyday Blake will ask me, "mommy we go bye bye today" With his thick green runny nose we are inside all day! He has also been waking up at 6:30 and every night he is up two times in the middle of the night. That makes for not a happy camper toddler during the day.

On top of it, I am just HUGE and am so uncomfortable. I am uncomfortable to stand, sit, bend, so that leaves me to laying down all the time. I am not up to cleaning, I am not up to cooking, or baking anymore. I try to reserve my energy to handle Blake and that's about it.

Jason has been sick for a month now. He keeps fighting a cold. By the time he gets home, Blake is ready to wrestle and play tackle and we can't exactly do that with Jason feeling sick for so long.

It's just frustrating honestly. I can't do what I normally could do...vacuum, wash out the big soaker tub, lift heavy things.....I have to wait on Jason to do all that and it's very maddening. I could get it all done in one day, yet I can't do it. And the most frustrating thing is I really wanted to enjoy our time as a family of three doing fun things together and with how sick everyone has been and how exhausted I get, we haven't done ANYTHING!

I don't want to look back on these last few months with only Blake as a regret. I hope Blake and Jason are on the mend and we can have all of March and part of April to enjoy before the little ones arrive.